All This Week

All this week I have felt like blogging... with no pictures to blog. But really, a lot of times I want to blog more about my life than necessarily photography. I find that even though I'm surrounded with a  multiplicity of social media outlets, none of them free up my mind and let me express myself like this lovely little blog does. :)

So you've probably noticed a new blog header... annddd... I would say "don't get used to it" because it really was just something I did in a few clicks and I'm not really loving it at all. I just was getting really annoyed every time I looked at the last eye-sore picture I had up there so I wanted to swap it up. Anyway, as I was saying, don't get used to it because it's not really what I plan to leave on the blog. However, considering my current schedule it will probably be up there for a few months. Ha! Who knows.

One thing I want to talk about is the aching need I have to be back in the photography world. Like the good ole days (insert auto trader jingle here) when I took a photo every day or at least blogged every day. I'm not saying that working full time and blogging every day is what I need to do. I'm just saying I'm missing that. So part of me is wishing that when I finally get my iPhone and maybe a GoPro that it will allow me to do that again because it won't be so time consuming as shooting on a DSLR. I mean, a DSLR does take a little more time. Just the facts of it, sadly.
Eh, well I've just been going through some really random photos and it's made me kind of miss what I used to be able to do.

Ironically, almost all of these photos tie a little bit to some things that have just been on my mind lately.

bonfires

the other night I stepped outside (after just barely being home from work) 

it was dark, a little chilly, and there was the smell of a nice bonfire in the air

for a split second, I imagined that I was a different person

someone with no obligations beyond work

one who spent a little time in the slow lane, hanging out around a bonfire

eh, but first, I would have to have a group of friends to do it with

for some reason, we haven't done that much

something I wish for

oh well

rain

it's even raining right now.

not much to say here, except I love rain and thunder

and I love the calm it brings to me

along the trail

we all know I love being on the trail

today I was on a trail, supposed to be finding a nice place to read and pray on my lunch break

it ended up I found a park bench that wasn't occupied

I sat down and tried to read... my eyes were too tired

so I laid down on the bench and looked up at the trees towering above me and tried to pray 

then I fell dead asleep and became an official hobo on a park bench for 15 minutes

kind of a vulnerable thing to do, haha, but I lived to tell the story

work

this was the stack of papers I had to read in training for my job

I still can't get over how God has lead me with this job and really given me the desire of my heart

I wanted to go full time, but I didn't know when it would be best

and I had some mixed feelings about it because I am still taking five classes online

but, God knew and he brought along a full time position for me

it's been really stressful at times with trying to juggle it all

one moment I can get so overwhelmed with it and just really want to scream and quit it all

but the next moment, God opens my eyes and shows me a path to make it through it every time

and it never fails to be okay at the end of each week when all my homework is submitted

I'm really not sure what I will do next semester

I know that it would be quite wise to pray about it some more 

because it is so easy for me to be blown around and just make a decision in one moment

when that decision will last me 16 looonnnggg weeks

right or wrong

-MarLeahJoy