17 December 2016

Always Remembering

Here I am playing catch-up on blogging. :)
I don't mind admitting that I'm behind, because I like to document everything. Sooooo why not document why I'm behind...? :P

I'm mostly writing this for the older "me" to come back and see and remember what it was like at this time. I can't ever decided how much I want to share about my life on here, but I used to share everything, soooo again I say, "why not!" ;)

 So to explain or excuse my procrastination here, I have to say it is quite simply because I don't "need" to share as much on here as I used to. When I started out this blog, I was sharing photography because I wanted to build a "following". Which was a young and naive hope at the time because I had a lot to learn, but people were supportive, so I continued. Then I really wanted to take portraits for a steady income, but that was time-intensive and scary. I still pursued it for a long time, but even then I could tell that I really loved sharing stories more than portraits of people. I remember staying up late editing pictures and excitedly sharing blog posts from different events like a camping or skiing trip. What I wanted most was for someone to see my life and these little short stories I told, and be truly interested in them. Maybe more importantly, to be interested in me!  (Though I NEVER would have admitted that!) Hehe, so at this time in my life, talking with Tyrel has most definitely taken that place.... well, at least he acts interested in my silly stories and pictures that I share with him. 😁😂😉
So, I never would have thought I would not be blogging so much just because I  have a boyfriend... but it all kinda makes sense now looking back over my lack of blogging now. Haha!

Now back to some major catching up... 

Our Nanna has been gone for 6 years now, but just the other morning I woke up in the middle of a dream about her. I was sitting beside her and I looked over and asked her if she had ever missed someone so much as I miss her. I began explaining to her how she got really sick and almost died, then suddenly realized that she had already passed away. I just started to sob in my dream. I woke up crying and the whole sad reality of the dream washed over me.
We always celebrated a lot of moments in life with her, and we still try to get together with the Adams on the special holidays that used to be spent at Nanna's house. 

This year the Adams came over to our house for Mother's day. Honestly, I don't remember anything that we did besides getting really stuffed and then trying to run up the hill after being full.  Hahaha!

Yep, trying to make it up the hill after feasting on lunch... 

One thing that Ranelle has always tried to get us to do while she was at home was to volunteer places and do things for other people on Thanksgiving and Christmas. We did occasionally, but now that all our family is more scattered and married (and without having Nanna's house to go to) it's a little more natural to spend time doing things for others than being exclusively with family. 
So this year for Thanksgiving, Momma baked lots and lots of sweet breads and we packaged them up with a christian tract. My parents and I went and distributed them on Thanksgiving morning to a community that my parents had a burden for. 
I really, really enjoyed doing that! :)

We came back home and had the Adams over for our Thanksgiving meal with what children are still left and able to come. If I think about it too much, it's really sad to be missing so many at our family gatherings. But such is life, ever changing.

We had ham and fried cornmeal mush with sorghum because it was definitely a "Nanna" dish, though it's not something we normally would have had for Thanksgiving.

This Christmas was yet another set of faces gathered together at the Adams. We were missing those that were sick and those that were miles away on the east and west coast, but I have to say I was just very happy to have Tyrel there. :)


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